Dash hope. 😖

Ok, saw my blog title? Yes I'm sad. Firstly I'm being forgotten. Sorry BEI. But this is for you. Ok, I'm disappointed in this few days when you didn't text me. Although I did not. I'm disappointed. Really. As in, when I on my phone, TREASURE & PRISCILLA was the only one who texted me. I'm disappointed when I try to do my best to you but end up? Forget it. 😊 I just need true friends that will be with me no matter what. I just need a person to talk to, I need a person to care for me, I need a person to listen me me when I'm sad. Yes, we all have things to do, we're filled with works, bf, friends. It's never easy to find time for your friends that you've neglected. But make the initiative to make time for them. Treasure is there for me. Throughout this years like seriously. She might act as she don't care, but deep in her heart, she mind/care like hell. I love her a lot. Really. I seriously cant find anyone that could replace her. Impossible I guess. I don't feel good when I treats someone & treasure them when all I get back was nothing. You get what I mean? As in. I'm real SAD. The letters below are all the letter I wrote for my Akys. I can't wait for the confirmation from Akys family for the appointment. A Supposingly, I'm visiting him on 2nd April. When I'm back. Hopefully. I miss him like hell. Ok, that's all. Bye.

19th BIRTHDAY🎁🔔🎉🎈/NIGHTMARE👻🎃👽👿

Seriously, I'm very very disappointed. I've invited about 96 people to my birthday. Only 6 replied by going. Ok, Michelle, Kaixin, Jolinda, Shawn & Gina was nice enough to tell me that they're not coming. Great to hear that isn't it? As in, at least you bothers to tell me. But hey, I seriously need to find out who's coming. I need to prepare a lot of things do you know that? My 贝贝 is planning for me, Perlin is giving me suggestions. And lots of things to plan. Sigh, I really don't know what to say. MORAL OF THE STORY, WHETHER YOU CAN MAKE IT OR NOT, JUST INFORM ME. THANKS. Anyway, the pictures were taken yesterday during my shopping spree. Ok, that's all. Bye. Ps: Sorry but I'm really pissed off/disappointed.

Maybe if I cared less, I wouldn't be so stress. ❤ Akys.

Slept at 7am this morning. Ok, Akl like crazy only. Kept on spam my phone. Then mummy reach Thailand. She knock the door like nobody's business. I woke up and open the door then straight to sleep. She kept on talking non stop. Like a children who just came back from playground la. Lol! PHOTOS BELOW WAS TAKEN WITH PRISCILLA AND AH XUAN. ONE OF MY PHOTO IS TO CHEER MY BEIBEI UP. LOVE YOU K! DON'T SAD. 😘 SHOPPING WITH MUMMYLOVE ON WED. GOING TO STAMP MY PASSPORT TOO! Stay tune & follow me at TWITTER! @ShermaineAkys
OKOKOK! LOVEEEEE~ 😍😍😍

Happy to hear from AKYS MUMMY! ❤

Ok, I'm like so happy, this year seems a better year for me. YEAYEA! I'm soooo happy! Why? Cause I heard from AKYS'S MUMMY that AKYS HAD CHANGED! CHEERS FOR YOU DEAREST! 😘😘😘 You won't feel the happiness i'm feeling right now anyway. This year, I had my BEIBEI❤, TREASURE❤ with me.

Especially 👧 B E I B E I ❤ who organize my birthday for me. WHILE IM OVERSEAS, SHE PAY FOR IT. HOW SWEET OF HER. THEREFORE, DON'T EVER TAKE HER FOR GRANTED!

She seems to forgive me too! (C) Everything seems so fine now. & HUN TOO! I've been awaiting for this day. MummyLove will be back tomorrow. Finish packing already!! HAHAHA! ALSO EQUALS TO NO MORE SCOLDINGS! IM LIKE SO HAPPY, I know I'm mad k. But i just love this year.

I had a very bad dream this morning about DaddyLove. I dreamt that he 'byebye' already. Cry die me la! K I just mention DREAMT! Ok, I told DaddyLove and he was like like that die la! I say:' No daddy! It shows that you'll live longer!' End up, he was laughing like mad. HEHE, MY KAWAII DADDYLOVEEEEE. ❤

IM GOING TO VISIT MY AKYS WHEN IM BACK! 16th April I think. CAN'T WAIT MAN! I don't care! I wanna be with him. HEHEHE, 'shy'. LOVE HIM MUCH, although he might not be here on my birthday this year and next year, but the following year, he must definitely make up for it! Cause it'll be my 21st birthday!

OMG, I sound so old! HAHAHA! Who cares, who won't grow older or who will grow younger? HAHAHA, I'm mad! CAUSE IM LACK OF SLEEP!

&&& FOR YOUR INFO, IM ALWAYS SWEET. HEHEHEHE! ❤❤❤
GOODNIGHT TO MY DEAREST BOY(AKYS) 😘😘😘

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❤Love those who follow, the rest, shoo!

Glad & Happy. ♥

PRISCILLA😜😜😜
Firstly, HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO MY AKL! 🎂🍰🎁🔔🎉🎈Ok, this year, I might not celebrating with you, but I still sang a birthday song through tango k! Sweet enough! With the party thingy. Love you.

BEIBEI♥
See how sweet my Beibei is, see what she save my contact as. Hehehe! Love her to the maximum! 😘😘😘

TREASURE♥
Thanks for taking off on my birthday.
So glad & touch that you're always here. Thanks. Love you treasure. 😘😘😘

CHICK♥
Finally, after years, we've chat. Ok, I'm happy an glad. And I really wish that you could be here on my birthday. It's been a long time since I've last saw you. I really wish to see you again. Try to come k?


Alright, Mummy is coming back tomorrow. Die, really have to pack my house before she's back! Otherwise she'll turn crazy I think? Seeing the messy room, cupboard. Die. Kkk! Gonna pack now! Byebye! ^^

开心开心！❤

So happy today! Haha, weird I know. Not mood swing or what k! I chatted with my HONEY YENNY! 😘 It's been years since we've last chatted k! TRACY AS WELL! Haha! She bomb me only la! SAD. So happy to chat with old friends actually. AND THAT HONEY YENNY IS GONNA SLEEP, FOREVER EARLY BIRD. I guess I'm the weird one. TEHEEEEE. YEA! Happy happy! WILL BE BACK AND RECEIVE MY PRESENT FROM HER! LOVE THEN MUCHZM.

AS WELL AS MY TREASURE, Cheerup ok, you know I'll always be there for you. We might be miles away, but there's something call line & fiber where you can call me and talk to me! I'll always be there for you as usual! Therefore, DON'T HESITATE TO CALL ME YEA! LOVE THEM ALL! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤



& OF COURSE I MISS MY AKYS TOO. ❤

Tell me how to not love a guy like him?♥

TREASURE, YOU'RE RIGHT. IT'S NOT MY PARENTS THAT IS WITH HIM. ITS MY DECISION. REGRET OR NOT, BLAME ON MYSELF. ILY TREASURE. ♥



😘AKYS👦,
Below are all the post in fb. I screenshot it. Ok, I miss you so much. 😥Really so much. Looking back in the past with swollen eyes.😳 Sad. Regrets. All sorts of feelings. I hope you know, that I still love❤ you as always. I'm still yours.💋 There's one post, you said, don't know when I come out, she's still mine anot.

I can tell you, till now, I'm still yours.✌ I've never forgotten about you. I miss you, soooo much. All the concerns, love, misses, care & quarrels will never be forgotten. Tell me how not to love you? 💏 You're the only guy that I love so much.

I may be stubborn, sensitive, princess attitude, demanding, and all sorts of bad things you've thought of! But yet, you still love ❤ me so much, tolerates so much. I didn't appreciate it at first. But now I realize. 😢Is it too late? I really want to write letter 📮📩📫 to you, but i'm in thailand. 😥

I just wanna tell you, If you're still mine, I'm still yours. I don't know what you feels inside, or this loads you can carry. Yea, we fought, loved, broken up, but there's just something you wanna get.

I don't want anyone else baby doll, I don't want another man. I'll build you up and give you my heart to cradle in your hand. I'm lying on my bed, thinking about you, I love you so much & I don't know what to do. I feel the warmth at my side, the pain in my heart moves to my eyes. So far away yet seems so near. You're the reason why I'm still here.

I awaits the times when we can talk, I awaits for the times we can finally hold hands and walk. To feel you for real, so close to me. The happiest person in the world is what you would make me. To hear you say those 3 little words.

Even though you aren't here, i still love you. & lastly, I think I wanna marry you. 💏